First Time Again

To close my eyes with such sweet memories,
Sweet torture it brings as I bask in the moment.
Thoughts run through me in a quick yet lingering stage
Nothing else would seem to matter in the end.

An absence that cuts deeper than any knife I know
A longing that only you can appease.
I try in vain to steer my mind clear,
all is in naught as you conquer my thoughts.

As everything else that is you floods in,
I feel what I used to feel for the first time again.
I realize that this is nothing new to me,
Yet I have forgotten how it used to feel.

The bitter sweet irony of it all keeps fear and joy close.
The uncertainty of where I stand looms above.
But in the midst of all the confusion,
I smile at the thought of what could be...

To be falling all over again.